Rebuilding Yourself | The Merits of Failure


I have grown and failed time and time again.

There are different levels of failure and most of them are on display for everyone to see.

At the end of the day, I'm still a writer, but novels have taken a back seat to the YouTube channel, which I'm able to turn my written pieces into video analogues and I know exactly what type of reach I'm getting with them. There's a powerful allure to this social media expansion, where we are able to comment and expand on these works as opinions come in.

This all brings me to the idea of failing.

Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better.
— Samuel Beckett

Most of my "sentient" life, I've wanted to be a writer, to be involved in stories, in whatever form they take. It took years for me to find this passion, but around 10-11, in 5th grade, when I learned about Goosebumps. I've been writing ever since, whether that's doing like the masters and borrowing ideas or if it's a matter of creating entirely new worlds, such as I did with my first four novels, stitching them together as the landmass grew around them to fill an entire world.

I wrote my first novel at 19, in 3 months.
I became a Store Manager at 22, in less than 18 months.
I was married by 24.
I wrote four novels by 27.
I was divorced by 29.
I published my first book at 29.
I started my YouTube channel, Dubious Consumption, at 30.
I revamped my Patreon at 31.

As time stretches, I am adapting, learning new ways of expanding my knowledge and abilities.

Yes, novels have taken a back seat, but I'm still developing ideas as I work, even if they are not currently hitting paper. I am happy and thrilled to continue working on my career, even if it's taken another sidestep from one failure into another enterprise. I live my life by shrugging my shoulders and moving forward, I can find all the reasons that people work the way they do and all I can do is live with their decisions and fight to keep mine above board if possible.

This all being said, my latest attempt to reinvent and build my future has been through my Patreon channel and the Dubious Consumption YouTube analysis channel. If you have the time or inclination, it would be greatly appreciated if you would pledge $1 per video, allowing me to grow and make this a viable career move.

Thank you all for continuing to follow me and who have supported me in the past and, hopefully, the future.


Justin D. Herd

Justin D. Herd is a purveyor of the weird and strange. He occasionally squawks at friends and family, but does so only under the cover of night. Okay, that's not true. He squawks in full daylight. Drinking games have been built around his peculiarities, but the truth of it is this: he is a loving husband, with two wonderful dem--children. One growls at things he likes, including pretty women. The other has started to learn hand-eye coordination. Neither had made it to the tender age of three. From there, things will only get more interesting. He spends most of his writing time either at a coffee shop or sitting at one of his many desks around his house. Any other place makes it nearly impossible for him to write. He uses horror movies and rock music to help get the juices flowing. His favorite authors are Jeremy Robert Johnson, Alan Campbell, Terry Pratchett, Justin Cronin, and Patrick Rothfuss. He consumes most of his books through audiobooks, but still loves his personal library and getting lost in the printed word.